A description of what it is like to be me. In my head...in my world...what I think...what I do...how i poo...but never why...and never about pie...

Tuesday, August 31, 2004

Jessica Simpson is a dumb bitch.

Ugh. 6am came alot earlier than expected. Apparantly my body required more sleep than originally anticipated. I got in the shower at around 6:30 and walked around naked in my room trying to remember what it was I was doing, oh yes, getting dressed, lacking focus, oh but doesn't that bed look inviting? Maybe I'll just lie down and ahhhh, that's real nice.. Okay, it's decided...I'm not getting up... Time for the phone call...

Last nite was Phantom Planet at the Cotton Club. Good show. Ran into Connor there. Also saw Adam Cohen, I said hello and I think for the first time he wasn't a complete dick to me. whatever. who cares anyway?

The Muffs are coming Sept 16th to Cotton Club! Wooo Hooo!

I am listening to Ashlee Simpson and it's actually pretty good. Kind of a cross between Letters to Cleo and Cree Summer I think. MUCH MUCH MUCH MUCH better than her STUPID sister Jessica. Can't stand that dumb bitch..

Monday, August 30, 2004


I have always and will always absolutely LOVE Butch Walker, formerly of the band Marvelous 3, now gone solo. Friday nite - Variety Playhouse - Atlanta, Ga - American Hi-Fi and Butch Walker. Most amazing show. For the last song, he actually unplugged the PA and used no mic and hushed the entire venue and sang his last song raw, then parted the red sea (the crowd) and got everyone around him to sit down and he finished the song lying down. Wow. Now that's power. Very cool and blew me away. On a funny note, I broke one heel to the shoe I was wearing and consequently had to physically break the other one off so I wasn't hobbling. nice. it was pretty funny actually. Then Sat. nite I went to Dixie to see ML's last show. It was great as always, and after the show we got a chance to talk and I got a chance to say what I have wanted, but didn't realize until that moment what it was that I needed to say. The jury is still out on that one...

Who is Butch Walker you ask? Go check out: http://www.butchwalker.com and find out what all the buzz is about!

Thursday, August 26, 2004


Last night I spent the evening drawing pictures on bristol board. I am proud of what came out after a few hours of doodling and can't wait to get back to it tonight. I drew a girl with her face sitting on her hands which are balled into fists -(inspired by how I was feeling and a cartoonist named Heather McAdams), then I drew a very close up of the neck of a guitar with fingers pressing down strings (from a photo I took) and from the same photo I drew a close up of the guitar with the hand coming down and playing - (inspired by the painting I saw hanging in Eddie's Attic last week). Also, ML called me last night. He is moving back downtown (yeah!) at the 1st of the month - I guess that means he won't be coming to Destin, but I pretty much knew that anyways. Well, not much to tell, so I will be going. Oh, here is a link to an interesting site I found yesterday while searching "chimney sweeps" on google: http://flueseason.com/history-of-chimney-sweeps

Tuesday, August 24, 2004

Am I awful?

Yesterday was my mother's birthday and I forgot to call her. But don't think I am all that awful, I did spend Sunday with her celebrating, it's just that I should have called yesterday too.

I woke up at 5:30 this morning to Chloe and Ewing TEARING thru my tiny apartment as if on acid. Why are kitties so active right before you can get in that last 30 minutes of sleep?! Damn pussies.

Monday, August 23, 2004

I suck.

I have lost all faith in men...again.
They all suck and it is again obvious to me that I WILL in fact be the crazy cat lady, so I might as well get a few more kitties and start my collection. Do you know what I did this weekend? nothing. not a goddamn thing. friday nite turned into drunkfest 2004 - don't even ask me what i did. all i know is that once i got to neighbor's it was all downhill from there. recooperating all day saturday - finally forced myself out of bed at 3:30 to shower and retrieve my car, and the old tried and true mcDonalds 2cb fix. works every time...except for this one. I can honestly say that I did not feel "better" (and by better i mean not nautious anymore) until around 6pm that evening. Not well enough to get my ass off the couch and do anything mind you, but what does it matter anyways, not one person called to see what I was doing that nite anyway. NOT ONE. Well, Conner called to see if I was coming to Dixie, but that was b/c he wanted me to print up some better looking mailing list sign up sheets for his band. So that doesn't actually count. He could actually care less if I was there or not. Just like Mark could care less if I am in his life or not. Oh yeah and that date I was suppossed to go on sat nite. Yeah right. Like anyone would actually want to go out with me. Obviously not. No call no show. WTF?I'm 29 and I've had one serious relationship in my entire life. ONE. I gotta get some work done so I don't dwell on this depressing thing that is my life.

Friday, August 20, 2004


Why is it that people have difficulty calling me back?
Mark hasn't called me back, James rarely calls back, now Sean had gone MIA and we are suppossed to be going out tomorrow nite. WTF! I emailed him this morning and asked if we were still on so that if we weren't I could make other plans. Have I heard from him all day? NO. WTF!

Thursday, August 19, 2004

Dyslexia Gone Bad

OMG - I just realized that my new address is the same but backwards as the one of the house I lived in with Tim... Weird....

Now: 1261
Then: 1621

Coincidence? Or am I just nucking futz?

Ramblings of an incoherent morning...

The first thing I do every morning when I get to work is to check my email both at work and in my yahoo address and this morning I was shocked to see this guy: http://www.beepworld.de/members64/string-emil/ueber-mich.htm What a fine specimen.

Don't you just love the internet?

So James is SUPPOSEDLY coming over tonite to take me to dinner and "make it up to me" since the last TWO times we had plans he fell asleep and totally flaked out, didn't call, NOTHING. I'm not counting on him, so I've actually made back-up plans this time. But my nose has been itching all morning, so, according to mama blue, it means I am having company. So we'll see...
I went across the street to hang out with Cmayo last nite, we watched Family Guy - what a fantastic show. Then we watched my new snowboarding 411 video magazine I received in the mail from Netflix. Netflix is one of the coolest things ever. I have a passionate hatred towards Blockbuster and all it stands for. 4.50 for ONE movie for a night and a half? F OFF Corporate Entity! I will keep my movie as long as I choose! That is all...time to get to work...

Not playing with a full deck?

I had a dream about Tim last nite.
I don't know what it means tho. Plus, in the dream, I knew it was a dream. weird. So in the dream, I "woke up" in our old house on Mathews St. in Fort Collins and there was a deck of cards all spread out everywhere in a long snake like figure all over the house, but there were some big gaping holes missing. I am just standing there as if I appeared out of no where and Time comes walking in the room following the cards with his eyes and then looks up and sees me and says "what are you doing here" and i say "i don't know...why AM I here?" almost as if I was asking him why he "summoned" me there? Curtis was also there and asked me what I was doing there and I told him I honestly didn't know, that I just sort of "woke up" there in the kitchen. I thought there had to be some meaning behind why I was put there in the dream and now in real life too...but I can't really say what it is.

Wednesday, August 18, 2004

Connor at Eddie's Attic

Good morning world.
After work yesterday I rode my bike 4 miles, ran 2 miles and then rode my bike another half a mile home. My legs were killing me this morning, but in a good way. Then I showered and had received a message on my VM from Connor (www.waitingforprincess.com) inviting me to be on the guest list for his show. I was originally going to head up to Limerick Junction in the highlands to see Adam Leland (www.demagogue.net) host open mic nite, but changed my mind last minute to go check out Eddie's Attic in Decatur - since I had never been there - which seems strange considering the amount of live music I see on a regular basis. Even Connor thought it was strange. His music is pretty mellow and reminds me of early Elton John a little bit. I kept hearing remnants of "Leave On" in his music. There are a few songs I have come to really enjoy. "Reason" is one of the ones that gets stuck in my head for a few days - which every musician likes to hear. I am currently listening to it online on his website and it sounds alot faster and somewhat "filtered" ? Other songs I like are: Eventually, Time By You and Waiting For Princess - but you'll have to buy a CD to hear them or go see him live, which I recommend anyway. Especially at Dixie Tavern on Windy Hill almost every Saturday nite from 10-2 am rockin the house Dixie style. I must say though, it won't be the same with out Mark Lusk (of the newly formed band FERNANDO - fantastic band - no website yet - playing this Thursday at Dixie, i think) on lead guitar. I enjoyed my time by him at the dixie. Until another time, peace, farewell, and keep rockin. (Phrase courtesy of Micheal Jones)

Tuesday, August 17, 2004

Monday Night Trivia

So I really didn't want to go out last nite, but my friend called and forced me to go play trivia in Little 5 Points. Good news is...we actually won! And we NEVER win. Well, not NEVER NEVER, but rarely anyways. With a little help from the guy at the next table that is. Last question was this: Name all 10 counties that share a border with Fulton County...as luck would have it this guy was from out of town and just happened to have a complete guide to Atlanta map in his car! Nice!
Here is another question that only our team got correct...and all because of me:
It's a movie quote - guess the movie:

"It's Christmas, and my brother makes killer eggnog with lighter fluid"

Do YOU know it?