A description of what it is like to be me. In my head...in my world...what I think...what I do...how i poo...but never why...and never about pie...

Tuesday, September 23, 2008

How would YOU feel if...

I don't know what to do...
Over 3 months ago I booked the Rockin Pontoons at the Gram Parsons Guitar Pull & Tribute Festival at the Okeefenokee Fairgrounds in Waycross, GA.

The entire band has known about the gig for months. Known where it is, when it is, all that jazz...
YESTERDAY, I am informed by the guitar player that he didn't realize it was so far and that he doesn't really want to do it...and the drummer who has "plans with his wife" on Sunday.


A gig, is a gig, is a gig. I realize it is a long ways to drive for a short set, but they are putting us up for the night, and we'll play in front of at least 600 people - which is about 580 more than we've been playing too lately. 600 people will hear and discover the Rockin Pontoons, AND it looks great on your "band resume" to play festivals in general.

I am just so disappointed. Where's the level of commitment? What's better for the band? Well, do you wanna save 100 bucks on gas or do you want to play? Money isn't everything and if you're not willing to commit, then what the heck am I doing? I can't be a part of this anymore if this is howe it's going to be, I don't see why I should...
I quit my 50k/yr job to do THIS and they're gonna bail last minute?


Wednesday, September 17, 2008

A survey I just posted on my MySpace that I thought was clever and witty of me so I thought I'd share it with all of you crazy people out there on...

...that intertube thing that Al Gore invented with all them tubes and wires and things...

Survey SAYS:

Do you have someone who you can be your complete self around?
Yes. I am completely myself around almost everyone I know or come in contact with. Except for maybe douch-bag customers who say asinine things to me...then I must bite my tongue and either fake-laugh at their stupid joke, or restrain the urge to reach over the bar to choke the shit out of them ala Homer Simpson does to Bart when the boy taunts him...

Whats the most random statement you heard this week?
what's your normal beer?

When you think about your last kiss, what does it remind you of?
sexy soft lips, oh yes,...I remember this feeling, so nice...

Who was the last person to call you?
Kathy Stringer

What's irritating you right now?
that last question I answered...no one called me all night....that call happened at 5pm today..although, now that I think about it, yesterday folks was blowin up my pager ALL DAY!

What is your nickname?
BLUE, BLUE-dawg, Your my girl BLUE, Miss Blue, Sometimes people call me naughty...

Is this year the best year of your life?
Every year gets better and better! Life is an ADVENTURE!

Do you have any strange phobias?
I scream bloody murder when I see a cockroach. Does that count? Especially them BIG OL PALMETTO FLYING ONES.
Seriously, I just looked up this photo from google images and I could barely look at the photo for very long, started giving me the hee-bee-gee-bees really bad.......

Where is your camera?
right on front of me. But I am going to buy another one tomorrow.

Who was the last person you gave up on?
I don't know. What kind of respectable people give up on someone or something?

Do you feel comfortable with answering personal questions?
Depends on the question.

Have you ever passed out?
yes, every night I pass out, but some people call it sleeping.

Would you rather your partner have gorgeous eyes or a gorgeous smile?
eyes. gorgeous brown eyes.

Your ex is driving next to you, what do you do?
slam on the brakes Top Gun style....he'll fly right by....just like the tower....negative ghostrider....pattern is full.

he used to be sooo hott and sexy....I guess I'm not 13 anymore.... I think I just figured out what to be for Halloween this year....

What did you eat today?
2 dozen Beau Soliel raw oysters from Appilaccicola bay, a handful of mussels in garlic butter sauce, 1 parmesean scallop, 1 small ramekin of clam chowder (mmmmmm) about 7 celery sticks, 2 bleu cheese olives and some mashed potatoes and green beans and a like 4 bites of chicken.

Have you ever kissed anyone with a name that starts with A or Z?
yes. I've kissed a boy names Adam...but that was a loooooooong time ago. at least I think I did.....actually, I'm not sure anymore....

When was the last time you wanted to punch someone in their face?
Friday Night. The douche-ROCKET who said my hoop earrings were stirrups for stilettos. Yeah buddy, yer hilarious you dirty ol perverted west texas asshole who thinks they can say anything to you because you're in the service industry and you HAVE to be nice. Try to be a gentlemen and have a little respect for people, FUCKER. (see question number one for earlier reference)

Where's the person you miss most?
probably sleeping.

Tell me a random statement:
"Champagne for my real friends, and real pain for my sham friends!"

Looking back, did you ever waste too much time on a certain boy or girl?
Oh wait, I just remembered another one, YES!
Want their names?

Do you know anyone who's addicted to any drugs?
Yes matter of fact, I think I do. But nothing serious. Wait, is alcohol a drug? But I think its the alcohol that's addicted to ME!

Do you have a best friend?
Yes, well, I have a best guy friend who I tell most things too, but then I also have certain other people who are girls who I can tell things too as well...so between my girls and my boys, I got great friends who I can always depend on one of them when I need them for a fruitcake casserole of emotional support!

Would you ever French kiss someone of the same sex?
Taffy is Delicious!

Have you ever broken someones heart?
Probably maybe I don't know. I don't think I would want to know.

Could you ever be friends again with someone that broke your heart?
I tried that with the first one and that still hurts a little...
So I never think about it, but hey, thanks for bringing up that emotional dagger through my heart! 'PRECCIATE YA.

Do you chew with your mouth open or closed?
I guess that depends on the allergy season...

Do you normally say "cute" or "hot"?
Depends on which one they are....some boys are cute, other ones are super sexy!

Are your eyes the same color as your mom's or dad's?
well, dads are blue and moms are brown and mine are green/hazely

Has anyone ever told you you have pretty eyes?
Yes....quite a few people actually...

Do you find guys/girls with facial piercings attractive?
no. i think they're stupid looking and stupid stupid. but hey, its your face, do whatever you want to it.

Does it matter to you if your boyfriend/girlfriend smokes?
yes, I would prefer a non-smoker please, but if you smoke occassionally like when u drink, thats ok. as long as its not like a shit-ton.

What do you think about your number four on your top friends?
i don't remember who my # 4 is.....
is that bad? I have to go look and cheat...hold on....( now whistle to yourself the Girl from Impanema)

or watch this:

oh, I'm back...so on my actual myspace survey, I forgot to come back and answer who that was so I posted another bulletin that said this:
I just realized in the stupid survey I just took that on the question about my top 4 person, I got so distracted by trying to find the perfect "Girl from Impanema" youtube clip that I totally forgot to come back and look and see who my top 4 person is and it's J*O*D*I* and I was supposed to say what I think about my person on my top 4 so here goes...

she's kewl. i like her. she talks alot, but its cool. so do I. we sneak onto private rooftop parties together and then try on funny hats and take pictures and dance on balconies to bob marley while watchin the po-po set up a road block in front of the house and handcuff and take a drunk girl to jail...poor girl.....so yeah, always an adventure!

What do you think your number 1 is doing right now?
probably stumbling home from moes n joes...drunk off of 3.25 pitchers of PBR

How many people of the opposite sex do you fully trust?
4-my dad, my brothers, and my friend steve.

How many times did you tell your mother you loved her today?
none today, but I told her yesterday. does that count?

Do you think age matters in relationships?
not especially. but there are extremes that I don't understand or necessarily agree with...

Can you recall the last time you sincerely liked someone a lot?

Will you be in a relationship in 4 months?
i don't know. who ever knows those kinds of things....i doubt it, but maybe, I don't know!

Look behind you what do you see?
my VIP badge for ATLANTIS MUSIC CONFERENCE. So exciting! Starts Thursday.

If you could change one thing about your life, what would it be?
Um, record labels would be begging me to sign my artist with them!

What was the first thing you did this morning?
drank a big cup of cold water

What were you wearing during your last kiss?
i can't tell you. its classified information. I could tell you, but then I'd have to kill you.

Do you fall for people easily?
no not easily.

Do you live with both your parents?
no i live all by myself! its GRRRREAT!

Do you laugh at all the wrong times?
um, no.

Have you ever thought of having plastic surgery?
never. you should grow old gracefully. These women look ridiculous.

How easy would it be to get over the person you currently like?
not easy, but not super difficult either. I pretty much keep a wall up these days. but I would be upset a little. I hope I see him this weekend....

Monday, September 08, 2008

Real Life Bad Dreams, and Imaginary ones too!

I woke up this morning at 7 am because I had court today for an illegal left turn that I made unbeknownst to me because I was following someone else who also made this same turn. In the fine city of Atlanta, this ticket is $216!!! So F that I say, and I will go to court and attempt to avoid this ridiculously high fine for such a small infraction....
However, I did not have court scheduled for today... when I glanced at the ticket again to look at the address to make sure I was going to the correct spot, I noticed it said September 4th, 2008 at 8am not Sept 8th at 8am - An honest mistake to be sure! So I call the number on the back of the ticket and actually get a court clerk on the phone who was almost pleasant (to be sure an anomaly for city employees!) - who then informs me that it is now an EXTRA HUNDRED DOLLARS because of my little mishap! WTF?!?!?!
Are you kidding me?
On a good note, she says that I may come into the walk up court at noon or 3 today to try and get it taken care of...wish me luck!
So after this news, it's a little difficult to go right back to sleep...so I stayed up and worked a little on these graphics I'm doing for a pain-in-the-ass client...then eventually, grew sleepy and went back to sleep from about 9-11...in this short time, I had 2, that I can recount, "nightmares".
The first one had to do with the ticket - when I got to court, they made me pay and unrecoupable $100 just to walk in the court room! I hope that isn't accurate!
The second one was much more disturbing...I had to roll over and actually say to myself out loud that it wasn't true before I really believed it!
So I've been sort of seeing this very sexy man lately. And it hasn't been that long of a time and nothing has been established at all, and this is fine with me. However, in my dream, I show up at his house (unannounced-and I would never actually do this) with two others that he and I both know...and he is in bed with another woman (I even got her name in the dream! It started with the same letter as mine) and he sees us in his house and he casually introduces her (from bed) to all of us, and even states how great she is at sex. My mouth falls to the floor, I spin around and high-tail it out of there, slamming the door behind me (of course). This is pretty much the end of the dream, the rest is just me going over with disbelief in my mind how only 1 nights previous I had been in that bed (not having sex) but still, there!
Do you think this mean anything at all????
Probably not, but it is still disturbing....