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Wednesday, March 21, 2007

I am NOT a racist!

I forwarded an email and I received more than one response back about how I am a racist or something. WTF?
SO STUPID. I don't know why everyone gets so upset over obvious reverse racism. It was an email saying basically how come there is a black history month, but if we had white history month then we would all be called a bunch of racists. I mean, it's TRUE, right? And how come there are black colleges but not white colleges. I mean, I don't WANT that, but its just an observance that happens to be true!

OMG, what is wrong with everyone? Another friend of mine wrote me back too saying she was surprised I sent it out. Truth hurts I guess. I don't see it as "Aryan propaganda" it doesn't say anything about "white supremacy" and it doesn't promote any sort of harmful action towards anyone, it is merely a forward I received that I decided to forward along to a few others. That's it. Everyone needs to get off their high horse and get over it.

Here is the email posted below, you tell me what you think...

Proud To Be White
Someone finally said it.
How many are actually paying attention to this?

There are African Americans, Mexican Americans,
Asian Americans, Arab Americans, Native Americans, etc.

And then there are just Americans.
You pass me on the street and sneer in my direction.
You Call me "White boy," "Cracker," "Honkey,"
"Whitey," "Caveman" ... and that's OK.
But when I call you, Nigger, Kike, Towel head, Sand-nigger,
camel Jockey, Beaner, Gook, or Chink ... you call me a racist.
You say that whites commit a lot of violence against you,
so why are the ghettos the most dangerous places to live?
You have the United Negro College Fund. You have Martin Luther King
Day. You have Black History Month. You have Cesar Chavez Day. You have Yom Hashoah You have Ma'uled Al-Nabi You have the NAACP.
You have BET.
If we had WET (White Entertainment Television) ... we'd be racists.
If we had a White Pride Day .. you would call us racists.
If we had White History Month .. we'd be racists.
If we had any organization for only whites to "advance" OUR lives ...
we'd be racists.

We have a Hispanic Chamber of Commerce, a Black Chamber of
Commerce, and then we just have the plain Chamber of Commerce.
Wonder who pays for that?
If we had a college fund that only gave white students scholarships
... you know we'd be racists. There are over 60 openly proclaimed
Black Colleges in the US , yet if there were "White colleges" ..
THAT would be a racist college.
In the Million Man March, you believed that you were marching
for your race and rights. If we marched for our race and rights,
you would call us racists.
You are proud to be black, brown, yellow and orange, and you're
not afraid to announce it. But when we announce our white pride .
you call us racists.
You rob us, carjack us, and shoot at us. But, when a white police officer
shoots a black gang member or beats up a black drug-dealer running
from the law and posing a threat to society ... you call him a racist.
I am proud.
But, you call me a racist.
Why is it that only whites can be racists?
There is nothing improper about this e-mail.
Let's see which of you are proud enough to send it on

Sunday, March 11, 2007

The longest secret...

So get this. I just found out that 2 of my co-workers, whom I consider to be the people I am closest too in our office, that these 2 people have been dating for A YEAR and EVERYONE knew about it EXCEPT for me. EVERYONE was keeping it a secret from me to spare my feelings, b/c at one point many many moons ago I had a small office crush on the dude. This crush dissapated over a year ago when I realized that although this person is a great guy and a good friend, that him and I wouldn't be a good match romantically due to his OCD-ness. It would drive me crazy and would never work. Now, the chic involved is someone I had previously confided in about my supposed "secret" feelings for dude buddy. So while I appreciate their obvious concern for my feelings, A FUCKING YEAR!??? I mean shit, am I a fragile little glass bunny rabbit? I can't handle it or soemthing, I'm gonna blow up and flip out and go on a killing rampage? But what really chafes me is that EVERYONE knew except me. I feel deceived, duped, lied to, and stupid. I am just counting the days until someone says something to me along the lines of "I can't believe u didn't know...", Translation: "gosh, you must really be a dumbass!"

I just don't know what to think. It bothers me that they didn't come to me sooner, that's it really. How would you feel if everyone in your office (and we have about 17 people) knew something and was keeping it from you b/c they didn't think u could "handle it"?

Does anyone of the 3 people who read this have any advice or insight to this sort of situation? I would appreciate a multitude of perspectives as I am mentally wrestling with this amoung other issues going on around me right now...

Thursday, March 08, 2007

A long and twisty journey it has been...

So, I recieved a missed call and a voicemail last night from RAS.
However, the VM said basically nothing. Here is the gist of it:
"Hey - saw your pictures, your trip looked awesome, I'm jealous, anyways, so I don't know call me back or I'll call u back, whatever, whenever, see ya later bye."
The pictures he saw is in reference to the mass email I sent out of my Ofoto album of my recent trip to Aspen to go snowboarding.

Seriously, It's not that difficult. I told you something, now you are supposed to get back to me and tell me something. Simple, right? You would think...

No actual request for me to telephone him back, no specific want or need to see me or speak to me, no even the subtlest hint about the fact that it has been 5 weeks since we last spoke or saw one another, and the last time was pretty significant, due to the bearing of my heart and soul and all. No mention if he has any thoughts or feelings about any of this.

What am I supposed to do with that? Do I call and tell him this? Do I compose an email and risk the possibillity of Beth going through his email and reading and deleting? Do I just sit back and do nothing? What do I do? Help me!

Please scroll down and refer to Feb 2nd blog titled "Big Week" for precursor to this event...

Thursday, March 01, 2007

ASPEN Photos

CLICK HERE to view my photos from my recent ski/snowboard trip to Aspen, Colorado!